原本有一个星期多的假期，可以大玩特玩，放轻松。
因为工作必须交差就索性把它带回去做。没想到，我犯了天大的错误。
简单的工作，看似简单，做起来却犹如难如登天。对于我，尝试了不知有多少遍后，索性就用最简单的写法。
一做就花了整个开斋节假期，祸不单行的是，自己又再后头生病了。完了，时机这么准，肯定给人家炸了。
享受在家的生活，虽然沉闷，但果然还是家有家的感觉。不过，总觉得时间的确有点过特别快的感觉。
想到工作，整个人就闲了。我这份人本来就是属于懒洋洋的类型。如果不是为了还‘债’、
公司电脑，还有利用价值，我哪有可能能撑下去。不知不觉这样撑就已快要一年了。钱途茫茫似的...
这样下去真的好吗？我的人生真的只是这样沉闷吗？
最近又玩了不少新游戏，果然还是我最好的提神剂。Mad Anarchy 后，又有Darksider II 和Sleeping Dog。不过要真的破这些游戏看来是不可能了。
看了Minami-ke，蛮搞笑。有时真服了我自己，随便挑一套戏，再怎么不好看都好，都能持之以恒地把它看完。
发现我的语文真的退步不少了。我以前的那种enthuasism 和求知欲 现在到底去了哪里?
Saturday, August 25, 2012
Saturday, August 11, 2012
11/8/2012(Saturday)
Despite my qualms,i still took the job. Kinda regret now.
Life seemed a bed of roses to me. I wonder if other people is satisfied or having fun in their working life.Well, frankly to say that i'm not. I'm not denying that i am a greenhorn considered person lacks of experience in working. I know i'm not mature enough, either in skill, communication and anything !! Yet, i have my own target too. Being not able to accomplish it means that i have failed.
Lately,i was like working like a dog.There's come again the same issue.It has been rehashed so many times.
yet the problem still not been solved.I took a couple of days doing what i can to handle it. It seemed that whatever case that leaving me to handle sure will grow a problem in the end. I barely can recall back when i have solved the issue in just one try.
For my job side, (sigh) I am getting in pinch now,as there are many things pending piling up.I don't think i am able to survive from all these hardship anymore. The manager did plan to hire for another person to help lightening my burden but somehow i was just unsure that whether it's a right choice or not. It was then i had a lot of pondering.
Being forced to work hard is simply suffering especially for the lazy kinds of people like me.I really don't know what could i be able to achieve from doing this.I just simply hope that the company would appreciate my effort.
I'm aware that my prolix style of writing here isn't going to help attracting any readers to here. But, i never want it since i was planning to keep this blog on myself when starting without publishing to public.
I was flabbergasted as knowing my pre badminton coach who taught me when i was a kid is now becoming a national coach for Turkey. He now is in charge training the pupils for represent their country as Olympic candidates. Come to think of it, I have missed quite many a lifetime chance in my life.
Olympiac game is back with action and this time it is held at London. Somehow, i was kinda having not so interest at it unlike the year before.I just know that our country is having high hope to get a gold medal for the badminton match.Also heard that if our country is able to make ourselves a gold medal, there would be a
scoop of free ice-cream for the whole nation.Well, it sounds ridiculous to me anyway.There must be another business tactic ensues behind the scene again.
All those hopes dashed when our player lost at final round of match.The outcome is not surprised. He's just a normal human being who had pressure afterall, not to mention being watched by whole nation people eye. But what makes our country a laughing stock again when a person who used to stand out for our country welfare suddenly sang a noob song,enraged the other country people and brought our nation to shame.
Right after few days after that, our country had unexpectedly won a browse medal for the water diving sport. It can be considered as a huge achievement as our country had never get a medal for this sport before in past history plus there were a lot of candidates competing with unlike the badminton.
I actually do have the impulse to know / learn / have/play all the stuffs in the world that i desire. But somehow, i am locking myself and keeping tied on my freedom. I do not know when i can grant my wish for myself. Why i am making it so hard to obtain it? All regard money! That's why...
Life seemed a bed of roses to me. I wonder if other people is satisfied or having fun in their working life.Well, frankly to say that i'm not. I'm not denying that i am a greenhorn considered person lacks of experience in working. I know i'm not mature enough, either in skill, communication and anything !! Yet, i have my own target too. Being not able to accomplish it means that i have failed.
Lately,i was like working like a dog.There's come again the same issue.It has been rehashed so many times.
yet the problem still not been solved.I took a couple of days doing what i can to handle it. It seemed that whatever case that leaving me to handle sure will grow a problem in the end. I barely can recall back when i have solved the issue in just one try.
For my job side, (sigh) I am getting in pinch now,as there are many things pending piling up.I don't think i am able to survive from all these hardship anymore. The manager did plan to hire for another person to help lightening my burden but somehow i was just unsure that whether it's a right choice or not. It was then i had a lot of pondering.
Being forced to work hard is simply suffering especially for the lazy kinds of people like me.I really don't know what could i be able to achieve from doing this.I just simply hope that the company would appreciate my effort.
I'm aware that my prolix style of writing here isn't going to help attracting any readers to here. But, i never want it since i was planning to keep this blog on myself when starting without publishing to public.
I was flabbergasted as knowing my pre badminton coach who taught me when i was a kid is now becoming a national coach for Turkey. He now is in charge training the pupils for represent their country as Olympic candidates. Come to think of it, I have missed quite many a lifetime chance in my life.
Olympiac game is back with action and this time it is held at London. Somehow, i was kinda having not so interest at it unlike the year before.I just know that our country is having high hope to get a gold medal for the badminton match.Also heard that if our country is able to make ourselves a gold medal, there would be a
scoop of free ice-cream for the whole nation.Well, it sounds ridiculous to me anyway.There must be another business tactic ensues behind the scene again.
All those hopes dashed when our player lost at final round of match.The outcome is not surprised. He's just a normal human being who had pressure afterall, not to mention being watched by whole nation people eye. But what makes our country a laughing stock again when a person who used to stand out for our country welfare suddenly sang a noob song,enraged the other country people and brought our nation to shame.
Right after few days after that, our country had unexpectedly won a browse medal for the water diving sport. It can be considered as a huge achievement as our country had never get a medal for this sport before in past history plus there were a lot of candidates competing with unlike the badminton.
I actually do have the impulse to know / learn / have/play all the stuffs in the world that i desire. But somehow, i am locking myself and keeping tied on my freedom. I do not know when i can grant my wish for myself. Why i am making it so hard to obtain it? All regard money! That's why...
Saturday, August 4, 2012
2012年8月4日(土曜日)
とても忙しいと大変な二週間があった。仕事が多いし、大抵難しいそうだ。いつも外へ出かけなければならないだから、心配したんだ。 まだ ちゃんと 真面目でやってないだけど、なんかあまり時間がない。
どうやて？わからない。俺だって、自分の事一番がわかる、たくさん事をまだ習わければならい。
たりない？何かたりない？全力で頑張ってと言ったのに、もっと時間が欲しいな。
このまま、自分もやだ。でもどうしてもやるきが出さない、何をやってもうまくいかないようだ。それに、最近の天気は よくない、
蒸し暑いと心も体もだらけた。
まい日働きてから、よくある事だがすぐ疲れにちゃた。言わらなくても、この生活、もうどんどんであちゃたよ。自分いつまで耐えるがわからない。そろそろ限界だ。
このあいだ、会社はどろぼうに入られた。俺、あそこ現場にいったのに、気つ事ができない、とまられなかった。あのどろぼう、運が意外でいいすぎた、まるでもう調べたようだ。俺の せいのか。
『ひだんのアリア』を見てから、次は『これはゾンービですか』をみたんだ。へんなアニメのに、面白かったと思った。
今日はおととうの誕生日。え、あいつにお誕生日おめでとうと言いたいから、おととうだからね。
もうこんな遅い時間か？ 頭もう重いし、痛いだ。そろそろ寝おうしようかな。おやすみ。
どうやて？わからない。俺だって、自分の事一番がわかる、たくさん事をまだ習わければならい。
たりない？何かたりない？全力で頑張ってと言ったのに、もっと時間が欲しいな。
このまま、自分もやだ。でもどうしてもやるきが出さない、何をやってもうまくいかないようだ。それに、最近の天気は よくない、
蒸し暑いと心も体もだらけた。
まい日働きてから、よくある事だがすぐ疲れにちゃた。言わらなくても、この生活、もうどんどんであちゃたよ。自分いつまで耐えるがわからない。そろそろ限界だ。
このあいだ、会社はどろぼうに入られた。俺、あそこ現場にいったのに、気つ事ができない、とまられなかった。あのどろぼう、運が意外でいいすぎた、まるでもう調べたようだ。俺の せいのか。
『ひだんのアリア』を見てから、次は『これはゾンービですか』をみたんだ。へんなアニメのに、面白かったと思った。
今日はおととうの誕生日。え、あいつにお誕生日おめでとうと言いたいから、おととうだからね。
もうこんな遅い時間か？ 頭もう重いし、痛いだ。そろそろ寝おうしようかな。おやすみ。
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