A week has passed again.Yet, i still couldn't find the courage to spit out my nightmare project.You might think that what's so difficult about that ? Yeah..maybe you can say that it's my pride that still haunting me.What if it ends up as a really simple task and i have exaggerated it?What if people start to use smirking eyes on me and start feel skeptical about ability? I used to have thrown away my pride and the meaning of life but why now i care about this? Slowly,i have discovered myself that i care about my job much.I care about myself and i don't want to lose my first job.I care about my family which i wish to help support their burden.Those are the reasons that hinder me from telling how tension and pressure i have in these past few weeks.
Mixing with new people isn't a bad idea although i tried myself to keep a distance from them.No point keep too friendly with them as we don't know what other people thinking too.Moreover, i prefer alone rather than goofing out with huge gang.The Malay and Indian guy that coming to company at the almost same time with me have quitted.Couldn't imagine that i just had lunch and chat with them before they disappeared without prior notice.Or maybe i should be give up and try to search another place that is more suitable for me.But,for time being,i would like to stay,trying to do what i can.
Being a stone's throw away from a supermarket is making my life easier.During lunch time,i can always take a stroll and brisk walk inside it.I enjoy reading the foreign language book and dictionary at the corner in bookstore.People might think that i have a weird habit but the fact is i used to like to read very much since i was small. The pleasure of seeking knowledge from book somehow has deep instilled in mine.
It's weekend. It supposed to be a relax and enjoyable time but i don't really feel so. Thinking that i seem have running out of time making me moody.Playing a few round of games won't heal it at all unlike usual.
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